The Ebb and Flow

Well...let me tell you! When that tide comes in it washes over me like a ton of bricks. Sometimes it hurts just as much as I think that would.

Recently, I've had to let someone go. I've had to let God take over and just trust that at some point, He'll bring joy regardless of the sorrow. My heart aches so much. The crux is that I have no idea what's happened. And there are no answers forthcoming. That's the ebb and flow.

This specific relationship has been loving, strong and most certainly adventurous. It's been honest and, up until now, open. I love this person...not sure how to love them right now, though. Sigh. I'm not sure how to proceed but, lucky for me, I don't really have to. The proceeding is all His.

I've come to realize that sometimes, God puts people in our lives for small amounts of time. What we think is solid and built on a great foundation is, in reality, just being held in His hand. Doesn't mean His hand isn't solid. It doesn't mean He's dropped me. It just means that His plan is very different from what I thought was set in stone. Huh, that is quite the revelation.....one I need a constant reminder of.

There is someone that has a little more recently entered our lives. God has shown me consistently that I am to love them. Unconditionally. So I do. This person is not one that I would've ever expected to be so prominent in our lives....not one that I would've expected to take so much of my heart. (while I do love my new son in law, this is not him)

I believe that somewhere down the line, the loss of one relationship and the beginning of another have a lot to do with each other....directly connected. The ebb and flow of life continue, and I get swept away. Lost in the current, but never drowning. He makes sure of that.

God is good all the time and all the time God is good. He has seen from the beginning the impact that these separate (but interwoven relationships) would have on me, our family and our hearts. I am not the only one mourning the loss of relationship.....their hearts ache as well. Yet, here we go with the tide. We trust that His plan is perfect. Not built with perfect people in mind, but with us (me) at the center. We are sinners, saved by grace. He is always for us.

If you're reading, please know you're loved. I pray for you daily, wish much joy and adventure for you. I hope the ebb and flow of your life tosses you around enough to remind you that you need Him all the time.

Enjoy the waves, friends.