Possibilities

In the 2 weeks since my first post of the year, things have gotten better. I decided to post my "resolutions". Not really resolutions, because resolutions bring guilt if not accomplished. We will call them......"Possibilities".

My hopes and dreams of possibilities for this year are:

-Love my husband better. Already working on this one. It's not easy, but I am truly pushing forward with it. He can still frustrate me, but I feel as though we're both more honest and exposed with the other.

-Be happy for my children. Disclaimer: I am NOT never happy for them. I am just not always happy that they get to grow up and begin their own lives. That part always makes me sad. I mean, HELLO....we raised them and loved them. In certain cases, someone else has come along to love them. AS sweet as that is, it's sometimes sad. Sigh.

-Walk the dogs more. They need it, I need it...my poor socks need it. And wooden spoons, plastic bowls, etc. need it.

-Be present for my friends. I've been in seclusion for about 3 months. Part of it has been sick kids, sick me, sick Matty. Part of it has been me not wanting to go into the world. To much to explain out there. I'm sorry if I've been withdrawn.

-Be more patient with my family. That is all.

-Go to Texas with Kaily! Ha! That one becomes reality on Wednesday. Unless we die before then. Or Jesus comes back. But...I'm planning on flying out early in the a.m. on Wednesday. See you on the flip side!

-Call my faraway friends. I miss you people!

-Try to be more neutral. I am highly opinionated (really I am!) and I need to remember that I should be patient with those that don't think like me.

-Maybe get 'new' cabinets. Painting is good.

-Be Matty's cheerleader.

-Trust God. This one should be easy. But it's not always.

-Tell others about Him. It's simple.

-Stop taking back the burdens I give up. They're heavy and not worth it! He is more than willing.

-Let God love me.

There are so many more. These are the ones that came first to my mind. As this year unfolds, remember that there are possibilities all around. Remember that God loves you and is for you. Somewhere along the line last year I forgot that. Not always, just sometimes. When it seems darkest, He is there. When it seems hopeless, He is there. When the possibilities seem limited, remember there is always opportunity. Even if it's just to smile at someone, grasp EVERY moment. His grace is sufficient, His love boundless, His way full of promise.

2 weeks ago, I came out of the gate with a very heart wrenching, honest missive. The facts of that haven't changed, but I'm more ready to welcome 2014. It waits to unravel in a marvelous adventure.

Happy New Year, friends. Adventure well!