People put other people in "boxes". They tend to look, assess and decide in a split second. And sometimes, they decide it would be fun to "play" with anothers life. I myself am VERY guilty of this. Not in recent years, but certainly as a selfish teen girl.
I used to push my boundaries, test the limits of another persons heart and patience. I would say horrible things, do horribler (HA, my own word) things and watch and see if my house of cards would fall down. When it didn't....well!...look out world, I was unleashed. Looking back, I have so much sorrow over the way I abused boys' hearts, and their trust. As possible, I have sought those boys out and asked forgiveness.
Recently, our colt girl broke someones heart. It was unintentional. However, sadly, this has burned a bridge that won't be built again. Her heart belongs to the far away boy....she tried to forget, to move past the one week this summer and to really appreciate this other boy. Alas, it didn't work. She didn't intend to cause him pain. She just couldn't justify their relationship while she felt that way about someone else.
This boy, the broken heart, he told her to contact him if she ever changed her mind. Sigh. Too much power for our "colt" girl. Ah, the heady rush of power. She holds his heart and emotions in her tiny hands. She could crush him. But she won't. As often as possible, I've reminded them they can not use other people as a means to justify an end. That they can not experiment emotionally with someone else just because that someone gives them the chance.
At some point, they may be the ones taken on the emotional tilt a whirl. They may be flipped upside down, thrown for a loop and taken for a ride. (I'm thinking Disneyland) But, I hope not. I pray not. I know that each daughter will be loved. I know that they will thrive and grow with their spouse. I know that along the way to find that someone they may hurt someone else in the process. I remind them that those others are precious, set aside for someone else. I remind them never to abuse the "power" one may give them. I remind them that "People are friends, not Playthings".
I am forever grateful that there is one who never plays with me. One who loves me unconditionally. One who sees and knows all I've done and all I'll do. I am His, beloved and treasured....in 'blue'.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
What is Fair, exactly?
There's a song that says "when a heart breaks, it don't break even". And I believe that. And that is NOT fair. Because it should hurt equally on both sides. I broke hearts when I was a teenager. I remember embarrassing a current boyfriend as I sat with my "ex" at a football game. I actually stood up and very loudly used choice words towards him. And yet, that same boyfriend took me back. So did the "ex". At the same time. One boyfriend in high school, one boyfriend out of high school. Not fair at all.
Our 'colt' girl met someone this summer. It wasn't super amazing or remarkable. There wasn't anything very different about him. He loves the Lord and shows it. For once, our 'colt' girl was settled, her heart calm. I wish I could say it ends happily. But, it doesn't. He had to go home, which is very far away. Our girl was devastated. Unfair, I tell you....to meet someone and have no choice in where they are from.
I don't know how to end this one. My heart hurts for the young ones involved, for the unfairness of it all. For the sorrow...for the fallout that will be. There is much more story, I just can't tell it. Just know that the sorrow is much and it isn't "fair" at all. We can encourage our children to be honest, to tell the truth. We can encourage them to not throw words like "I love you" around. We can encourage them to not avoid things....they tend to think that avoidance is key. And they can pretend that nothing matters. But in the end...that's not fair. Someone will get hurt.
And when a heart breaks, it doesn't break even. Not ever. That is the greatest unfairness of it all....
Our 'colt' girl met someone this summer. It wasn't super amazing or remarkable. There wasn't anything very different about him. He loves the Lord and shows it. For once, our 'colt' girl was settled, her heart calm. I wish I could say it ends happily. But, it doesn't. He had to go home, which is very far away. Our girl was devastated. Unfair, I tell you....to meet someone and have no choice in where they are from.
I don't know how to end this one. My heart hurts for the young ones involved, for the unfairness of it all. For the sorrow...for the fallout that will be. There is much more story, I just can't tell it. Just know that the sorrow is much and it isn't "fair" at all. We can encourage our children to be honest, to tell the truth. We can encourage them to not throw words like "I love you" around. We can encourage them to not avoid things....they tend to think that avoidance is key. And they can pretend that nothing matters. But in the end...that's not fair. Someone will get hurt.
And when a heart breaks, it doesn't break even. Not ever. That is the greatest unfairness of it all....
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I Forget
I forget numerous thing. Most notably my phone. And once a child taking a nap. Also, I forget sometimes to pick my kids up. Sometimes, I even pretend to forget things so I won't have to do them.
Recently, I read a blog by someone who opened their heart about their struggle with infertility. I was moved by their honesty, their candid words. And it led to me to remember that I forget.
I forget that there are people who would swap everything they have to have what I have. I forget that the way God has blessed me the richest is a struggle for many. I forget to see these precious gifts as such. I forget so often that each life was created, His plan.
Mostly it's when I've hollered 5 times to "Come down to dinner!", or when I've cleaned every room and given a 'fresh start'....only to find a week later it's like gnomes came through looking for treasures. I forget when grades are bad, when they inform me they have somewhere to be and it starts in 5 minutes. I forget when I'm watching ANOTHER Barbie movie and I just want to smother myself with a pillow.
I remember when I was pregnant with the tall girl. I was at a store and the cashier slowly counted the children with me. At this time, I had a step-son. As she finished counting, her eyes clouded over and she said to me "4 children and you're pregnant. You probably don't even want this one.". I looked at her in shock, quickly finished my transaction and left. My heart hurt, for both of us. After Harley was born, I had a similar experience with another gal. Her and her husband had been trying desperately to have a child. When her husband found out we had 6 daughters, he shoved his wife at me and asked me to "Please, rub off on her.". My heart ached, the sorrow in her eyes so deep, shame radiating from her face. I see it, you know. On other faces. I never know what to say.
I forget that what seemed simple for me is so hard for others. I forget that when we're pinching pennies and "borrowing from Peter to pay Paul" that God has richly blessed us. It's so easy to forget.....so easy to just let myself off the hook for forgetting.
I'm not saying that now everything will be perfect, and suddenly the roses will bloom and unicorns will lolligag around my house. I'm saying that I will be more sensitive, more aware and take more time to just enjoy. Life is still going to happen and things are going to be up and down. But I will not forget that my riches come in the package of girls.
Recently, I read a blog by someone who opened their heart about their struggle with infertility. I was moved by their honesty, their candid words. And it led to me to remember that I forget.
I forget that there are people who would swap everything they have to have what I have. I forget that the way God has blessed me the richest is a struggle for many. I forget to see these precious gifts as such. I forget so often that each life was created, His plan.
Mostly it's when I've hollered 5 times to "Come down to dinner!", or when I've cleaned every room and given a 'fresh start'....only to find a week later it's like gnomes came through looking for treasures. I forget when grades are bad, when they inform me they have somewhere to be and it starts in 5 minutes. I forget when I'm watching ANOTHER Barbie movie and I just want to smother myself with a pillow.
I remember when I was pregnant with the tall girl. I was at a store and the cashier slowly counted the children with me. At this time, I had a step-son. As she finished counting, her eyes clouded over and she said to me "4 children and you're pregnant. You probably don't even want this one.". I looked at her in shock, quickly finished my transaction and left. My heart hurt, for both of us. After Harley was born, I had a similar experience with another gal. Her and her husband had been trying desperately to have a child. When her husband found out we had 6 daughters, he shoved his wife at me and asked me to "Please, rub off on her.". My heart ached, the sorrow in her eyes so deep, shame radiating from her face. I see it, you know. On other faces. I never know what to say.
I forget that what seemed simple for me is so hard for others. I forget that when we're pinching pennies and "borrowing from Peter to pay Paul" that God has richly blessed us. It's so easy to forget.....so easy to just let myself off the hook for forgetting.
I'm not saying that now everything will be perfect, and suddenly the roses will bloom and unicorns will lolligag around my house. I'm saying that I will be more sensitive, more aware and take more time to just enjoy. Life is still going to happen and things are going to be up and down. But I will not forget that my riches come in the package of girls.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
I will remember....
It's a New Year. Full of new possibilities. Full of unknown joys and unknown trials. My resolution is to remember. Remember what, you ask? Well....
I will remember that my husband doesn't think like me. I will try not to expect him to.
I will remember to enjoy the moments that Harley wants to play a game I've played a thousand times. She is only 10 for 8 more months. She reminds me all the time that she will be a "tween" come September. Sigh.
I will remember that first love is sweet....and that certain people only get ONE minute to say goodbye to their boyfriend. After that she will get yanked inside the house.
I will remember to take time to talk to my girls. Slowly, they are moving out of our home and into lives of their own.
I will remember that we raised that one girl with common sense and God. I can't make her make the choices I would....she's already made so many that I never had the sense to make!
I will remember that my body is meant to be strong. I will not get caught up in what I "should" be, but work on who God created me to be.
I will remember that my Matty likes my curves. That's all.
I will remember to be patient with the puppy. Even when I wish Murphy would eat her.
I will remember to laugh at the little things. After all, they really don't matter.
I will remember God's abundant love and provision over 2012. Sometimes, it seemed as though we had been forgotten...but He reminded me that He bottles my tears and was always there.
I will remember to call my friends. And they will remember to call me. And my parents. I will call them.
I will remember to read my bible. His word is a blueprint, a guide and truth.
I will remember to pray. And when I don't, He will remind me.
I will remember to be patient with that one girl. She is changing daily and learning about herself. I forget how hard the transition from "tween" to "teen" is.
I will remember to love my husband...he will love me.
I will remember that my granddaughters mother is not me....she has to learn things by doing. I can't do them all...even though I want to.
I will remember to hug my girls. They're squishable.
Mostly, I will remember that I am His beloved. I will cling to that, bank on it and hold it tight. And if I forget, my tattoo reminds me. In blue.
What will you remember this year?
I will remember that my husband doesn't think like me. I will try not to expect him to.
I will remember to enjoy the moments that Harley wants to play a game I've played a thousand times. She is only 10 for 8 more months. She reminds me all the time that she will be a "tween" come September. Sigh.
I will remember that first love is sweet....and that certain people only get ONE minute to say goodbye to their boyfriend. After that she will get yanked inside the house.
I will remember to take time to talk to my girls. Slowly, they are moving out of our home and into lives of their own.
I will remember that we raised that one girl with common sense and God. I can't make her make the choices I would....she's already made so many that I never had the sense to make!
I will remember that my body is meant to be strong. I will not get caught up in what I "should" be, but work on who God created me to be.
I will remember that my Matty likes my curves. That's all.
I will remember to be patient with the puppy. Even when I wish Murphy would eat her.
I will remember to laugh at the little things. After all, they really don't matter.
I will remember God's abundant love and provision over 2012. Sometimes, it seemed as though we had been forgotten...but He reminded me that He bottles my tears and was always there.
I will remember to call my friends. And they will remember to call me. And my parents. I will call them.
I will remember to read my bible. His word is a blueprint, a guide and truth.
I will remember to pray. And when I don't, He will remind me.
I will remember to be patient with that one girl. She is changing daily and learning about herself. I forget how hard the transition from "tween" to "teen" is.
I will remember to love my husband...he will love me.
I will remember that my granddaughters mother is not me....she has to learn things by doing. I can't do them all...even though I want to.
I will remember to hug my girls. They're squishable.
Mostly, I will remember that I am His beloved. I will cling to that, bank on it and hold it tight. And if I forget, my tattoo reminds me. In blue.
What will you remember this year?
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Stolen!
I've taken (stolen) this idea from a friend:
Best Quotes of the Year! (spoken in loud, booming voice)
1)"Well, I'm not going to date him if he doesn't have any money." By Kaily, age 15.(now 16) Who has a job and is currently dating someone who has no money. She has finally stopped growing, height wise, but continues to grow emotionally and spiritually. We are proud of the woman she is becoming and look forward to seeing her become the surgeon she aspires to be.
2)"Can you take my place?!" By Hillary, near the end of her labor. We are so very excited that we are officially grandparents! We love that Hillary and Jeremy have moved here and we are able to be a part of their lives and get to see little Reya grow up! What a joy!
3)"I told them I was their first fan!" By Harley, age 10. In the spring she got to go to her very first concert and saw her favorite band. By the quote, you can tell what she told them. She continues to grow upward, and is loving being a auntie. God is key in her life and she'll tell anyone all about Him. She is still quite the character and enjoyed very much meeting Cinderella 10 times at Disneyland.
4)"I can't get it to send to your yoo-hoo account." By Matty, trying to send an e-mail to my Yahoo. Matty continues to soldier on amidst this army of girls. And while he has a son in law now, it still doesn't even up the playing field. We even got a girl puppy. He loves his new job at the hospital and really is looking forward to moving up in his chosen work.
5)"I'm not reaching into my stocking to get a bandaid!" By Chellsei, age 17. Said just a minute ago. She continues to inspire me with her wise words and is currently looking into colleges. She saw God's answer to prayer when she got to meet Hawk Nelson in person and chatted with them for 5 minutes behind the stage. We are so very proud of her and are so excited to see her grow in faith. (she stopped growing height wise a long time ago)
6)"I can't go _______________ because I'm going home for the weekend" By Emily, age 19. She was trying to surprise me....however once on facebook, it is no longer a surprise. She is doing well at University of Idaho and we are so very proud of her. Her focus is a little askew, but she'll straighten out. She currently has a boyfriend who is younger than her.
7)"Kaily has to marry 'Siah so we can be sisters." By Savannah, age 12. Her very good friend has a brother that they want Kaily to marry so they can be forever related. I told Savannah she could marry him herself and get the same result. The look she gave was priceless. She is doing great in school and her sense of humor shows itself daily.
8)"Seriously??!" Said by me, age 40. Constantly and daily. I am still flawed, trying to keep myself together and still be nice to those around me. I am a work in progress and know that God isn't done yet.....so thankful for that! My heart aches in knowing that our time is short with the girls, but so grateful that we've had them. They are all beautiful and wonderful girls, with a heart for the Lord. I am enjoying being Matty's wife....even on days we fight. ;)
So, this is it. My "Stolen" idea....I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year. I look forward to chatting with you again in 2013.
Remember, He is the reason for the season!
9)"Would love to see a picture of that baby!" By Jeri, friend. Jeriana! Look on FaceBook....pictures are EVERYWHERE! Love you!
Best Quotes of the Year! (spoken in loud, booming voice)
1)"Well, I'm not going to date him if he doesn't have any money." By Kaily, age 15.(now 16) Who has a job and is currently dating someone who has no money. She has finally stopped growing, height wise, but continues to grow emotionally and spiritually. We are proud of the woman she is becoming and look forward to seeing her become the surgeon she aspires to be.
2)"Can you take my place?!" By Hillary, near the end of her labor. We are so very excited that we are officially grandparents! We love that Hillary and Jeremy have moved here and we are able to be a part of their lives and get to see little Reya grow up! What a joy!
3)"I told them I was their first fan!" By Harley, age 10. In the spring she got to go to her very first concert and saw her favorite band. By the quote, you can tell what she told them. She continues to grow upward, and is loving being a auntie. God is key in her life and she'll tell anyone all about Him. She is still quite the character and enjoyed very much meeting Cinderella 10 times at Disneyland.
4)"I can't get it to send to your yoo-hoo account." By Matty, trying to send an e-mail to my Yahoo. Matty continues to soldier on amidst this army of girls. And while he has a son in law now, it still doesn't even up the playing field. We even got a girl puppy. He loves his new job at the hospital and really is looking forward to moving up in his chosen work.
5)"I'm not reaching into my stocking to get a bandaid!" By Chellsei, age 17. Said just a minute ago. She continues to inspire me with her wise words and is currently looking into colleges. She saw God's answer to prayer when she got to meet Hawk Nelson in person and chatted with them for 5 minutes behind the stage. We are so very proud of her and are so excited to see her grow in faith. (she stopped growing height wise a long time ago)
6)"I can't go _______________ because I'm going home for the weekend" By Emily, age 19. She was trying to surprise me....however once on facebook, it is no longer a surprise. She is doing well at University of Idaho and we are so very proud of her. Her focus is a little askew, but she'll straighten out. She currently has a boyfriend who is younger than her.
7)"Kaily has to marry 'Siah so we can be sisters." By Savannah, age 12. Her very good friend has a brother that they want Kaily to marry so they can be forever related. I told Savannah she could marry him herself and get the same result. The look she gave was priceless. She is doing great in school and her sense of humor shows itself daily.
8)"Seriously??!" Said by me, age 40. Constantly and daily. I am still flawed, trying to keep myself together and still be nice to those around me. I am a work in progress and know that God isn't done yet.....so thankful for that! My heart aches in knowing that our time is short with the girls, but so grateful that we've had them. They are all beautiful and wonderful girls, with a heart for the Lord. I am enjoying being Matty's wife....even on days we fight. ;)
So, this is it. My "Stolen" idea....I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year. I look forward to chatting with you again in 2013.
Remember, He is the reason for the season!
9)"Would love to see a picture of that baby!" By Jeri, friend. Jeriana! Look on FaceBook....pictures are EVERYWHERE! Love you!
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Wrappings and Trappings
Our gifts are wrapped! Yes, world, I am already done wrapping gifts. I did most of my shopping on black Friday...or Thursday as it was. Our tree is up, our lights are lit and the stockings are hung. I have a list of things to do, see and places to be. I have parties to plan and baking to do. Emily will be home, we have a new granddaughter and a son in law to celebrate with. Kaily has a new (old) boyfriend (remember the one from over a year ago?) and someone else could have a new relationship by the time Christmas rolls around.....we'll see what the next week unfolds.
BUT....let's take a step back. Let's forget the parties, the baking and the gifts. Let's breathe. Last week, we went to the capitol to see the tree lighting. It was the first time we've ever done that. It was magical. The girls got along and everything went smoothly. This Monday, we're going to see "Winter Garden Glow"....never done that either! As we do these things, I am reminded that it's not about the wrappings and trappings. It's about the memories, the joy and the fellowship of this family. Things have changed, our puzzle has shifted...but it's good.
I want to remember all the joy, the adventure and the fun we have. I want to hold on to the smiles, the laughter and the goofiness. I want to love well and be loved much. And I want to let you in on a secret: It's about one gift. A very long time ago, God created the earth. And He put us on it. When we didn't do what we should've, He allowed His son to be born, on Earth to human parents. He didn't want anyone to suffer, didn't want anyone to be separated from Him...so He created the sacrifice. His son was born so He could die, so we could live. He bottles our tears, prays for us and died for us. He prepares a home for us (me), He is our (my) bridegroom. His heart is for me and no one could stand against Him. He is love and He loves us (me) much.
Christmas is fun. It's beautiful, uniting and joyful. It is the one time of year that people tend to forgive more, give generously and forget sorrows. And sometimes, forget what it's all about. It's not about the wrappings and trappings....it's about celebrating the baby that was born to die for YOU.
My Christmas wish for you this year is that you love well. Remember to love those you would typically overlook, enjoy the little things and soak up the blessings God has given you. Even when it seems like there aren't any....He is there. He knows, dear one. He sees you and knows your name. His plan is perfect.....just hold on and enjoy the season. His gift was for you.
Merry Christmas, friends. May your holiday be bright. May the Son shine.
BUT....let's take a step back. Let's forget the parties, the baking and the gifts. Let's breathe. Last week, we went to the capitol to see the tree lighting. It was the first time we've ever done that. It was magical. The girls got along and everything went smoothly. This Monday, we're going to see "Winter Garden Glow"....never done that either! As we do these things, I am reminded that it's not about the wrappings and trappings. It's about the memories, the joy and the fellowship of this family. Things have changed, our puzzle has shifted...but it's good.
I want to remember all the joy, the adventure and the fun we have. I want to hold on to the smiles, the laughter and the goofiness. I want to love well and be loved much. And I want to let you in on a secret: It's about one gift. A very long time ago, God created the earth. And He put us on it. When we didn't do what we should've, He allowed His son to be born, on Earth to human parents. He didn't want anyone to suffer, didn't want anyone to be separated from Him...so He created the sacrifice. His son was born so He could die, so we could live. He bottles our tears, prays for us and died for us. He prepares a home for us (me), He is our (my) bridegroom. His heart is for me and no one could stand against Him. He is love and He loves us (me) much.
Christmas is fun. It's beautiful, uniting and joyful. It is the one time of year that people tend to forgive more, give generously and forget sorrows. And sometimes, forget what it's all about. It's not about the wrappings and trappings....it's about celebrating the baby that was born to die for YOU.
My Christmas wish for you this year is that you love well. Remember to love those you would typically overlook, enjoy the little things and soak up the blessings God has given you. Even when it seems like there aren't any....He is there. He knows, dear one. He sees you and knows your name. His plan is perfect.....just hold on and enjoy the season. His gift was for you.
Merry Christmas, friends. May your holiday be bright. May the Son shine.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Whoop De "Thankful" Do!
Yes, the title is a little flat. It's time for my "Thankful" blog....and I'm having trouble finding something to be thankful for this morning. A little back story: Over something incredibly stupid, Matty and I fought last night. And he slept on the couch. Really. So this morning....well, I was/am still cranky. But, I'm going to give this a whirl.
I'm thankful I'm breathing.
I'm thankful my kids are breathing.
I'm thankful my granddaughter is breathing.
Ok, I'm thankful Matty is breathing. (honest)
I'm thankful Murphy has let the puppy live and I haven't found her shaken to death by her neck.
I'm thankful for the spider guy.
I'm thankful for German boys who send chocolate.
I'm thankful that I realized this year that our "colt" girl has it in her to be shaken to her core.
I'm thankful I am "Beloved" in blue and Kaily is "Imperfect" in purple.
I'm thankful for my friends...ones who remind me to breathe as a needle jabs into my shoulder continuously.
I'm thankful my son in law moved her so I could be with Hillary when Reya was born.
I'm thankful for Logan.
I'm thankful to Harriet....she created the path that led to my high school graduation.
I'm thankful that Emily is keeping a (somewhat) level head at college.
I'm thankful that the yumminess of Thanksgiving dinner is right around the corner! Lots of food, treats and killer bunnies!
Oh, yes...I'm thankful for Killer Bunnies. And for Jess, who talks in a funny accent when she gets to choose a carrot.
I'm thankful I'm still here...alive and able.
I'm thankful for Hawk Nelson...what a treat for Chellsei!
I'm thankful that I got to go to Disneyland. AGAIN!
I'm thankful.
Things I am NOT thankful for:
fights
outhouses
still speedos
beets and butterscotch
spiders (hence the spider guy)
puppy training....and puppy eating everything in sight
when Murphy acts like he's going to grab puppy by her neck and shake her to death
sleepless nights with hubby on couch
taking the yuckies out of the turkey....ewwwww!
Something I am ALWAYS thankful for:
God
His infinite wisdom and grace
that He allows me to live, raise His children and have another chance at being a good wife
that He holds my hand, I am never alone
So, the moral to this list is: Just because it doesn't seem to work, doesn't mean it's broken. This morning is a "flat" morning for me...doesn't have to be a "flat" day. And I'm thankful for that....I get a "Begin Again".
Thank you for reading....for sticking with me, for loving me through my honesty. I am thankful for you, unknown friends. God bless you and keep you!
thankful for stretchy pants....
I'm thankful I'm breathing.
I'm thankful my kids are breathing.
I'm thankful my granddaughter is breathing.
Ok, I'm thankful Matty is breathing. (honest)
I'm thankful Murphy has let the puppy live and I haven't found her shaken to death by her neck.
I'm thankful for the spider guy.
I'm thankful for German boys who send chocolate.
I'm thankful that I realized this year that our "colt" girl has it in her to be shaken to her core.
I'm thankful I am "Beloved" in blue and Kaily is "Imperfect" in purple.
I'm thankful for my friends...ones who remind me to breathe as a needle jabs into my shoulder continuously.
I'm thankful my son in law moved her so I could be with Hillary when Reya was born.
I'm thankful for Logan.
I'm thankful to Harriet....she created the path that led to my high school graduation.
I'm thankful that Emily is keeping a (somewhat) level head at college.
I'm thankful that the yumminess of Thanksgiving dinner is right around the corner! Lots of food, treats and killer bunnies!
Oh, yes...I'm thankful for Killer Bunnies. And for Jess, who talks in a funny accent when she gets to choose a carrot.
I'm thankful I'm still here...alive and able.
I'm thankful for Hawk Nelson...what a treat for Chellsei!
I'm thankful that I got to go to Disneyland. AGAIN!
I'm thankful.
Things I am NOT thankful for:
fights
outhouses
still speedos
beets and butterscotch
spiders (hence the spider guy)
puppy training....and puppy eating everything in sight
when Murphy acts like he's going to grab puppy by her neck and shake her to death
sleepless nights with hubby on couch
taking the yuckies out of the turkey....ewwwww!
Something I am ALWAYS thankful for:
God
His infinite wisdom and grace
that He allows me to live, raise His children and have another chance at being a good wife
that He holds my hand, I am never alone
So, the moral to this list is: Just because it doesn't seem to work, doesn't mean it's broken. This morning is a "flat" morning for me...doesn't have to be a "flat" day. And I'm thankful for that....I get a "Begin Again".
Thank you for reading....for sticking with me, for loving me through my honesty. I am thankful for you, unknown friends. God bless you and keep you!
thankful for stretchy pants....
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